Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Thank God for granting me, this moment of clarity....

So my epiphany hit me at approx 9:50 pm September 20, 2011

I'll start from the beginning. Today in visual merchandising class we are working on a window display project. I raise my hand an ask "In the real world, for projects like these will there always be a group of ppl having to agree on a single display? Sounds annoying to compromise for a living"
The reply was no, not if youre the art director or you are in charge. Mostly ppl discuss ideas and the one in charge says yes or no.

Later in this same class we break in to our groups...blah blah blah group work is for the birds.
My professor asked us to write up a detailed plan for action for our project. Write out each and every step literally. Once we turned in our plans she tells us "whoever has the most detailed plan will be the project manager. It is the most responsibility b/c u must delegate and make sure everything goes smoothly and is completed"

All day afterwards all I could think was- Damn I hope I'm project manager!!
I have a type A personality. I like to lead and I like things to go right. In my mind right is my way!
So I get online looking up internships and up until this point I couldnt pinpoint exactly what it was I wanted to do with my life. I knew it would be fashion oriented but beyond that I wasnt sure.
Sooo for example you work for Louis Vitton. Yall want to launch a belt line and revamp the whole campaign effectively and inexpensively. You then hire ME. I come in tell who what to do and when to do it. You trust my consulting opinion because I DO THIS. If theres one thing I know how to do, its how to be RIGHT. Just ask my exes! Lmao
Ahhh if youre still reading youre amazing! Im researching my future career as we speak...... <3

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Oh my po lil blog!

I've missed thee. Getting my thoughts out. Its really a release I didnt know I would miss. 
Randomness swirling swirling. 
My mind goes from thinking about this young man and what went wrong wit that shit, to what am I doing upon graduation, to adding ish to my To Do List, to what will I eat next even tho I dont think I should be eating, to praying for strength. But I digress. 

I'm back updating my lil blog! :) If you're reading this heyyyyyy you! lol
Today's topic is, my selective memory.
I can mentally block out events that happened. Things I didn't like. People I regret meeting. Arguments I regret having. I can delete it from my memory. But is it really gone? Like one day will I think back and recall all foolishness Ive chosen not to dwell on for the sake of my emotional stability? 
Will all the times Ive decided to play it cool all add up and one day I become that girl who cries and stuff?
I have like a storage locker in my brain (or maybe its in my heart) that I don't go in to. I just throw all stupid shit in there. Things I'd rather not think about and I lock it. The end. Eventually I forget, the happening turn in to hazy unfocused even dream like experiences. I'm like did that shit really happen? Yes Ash it did you just decided it didn't.......... hmmmm

I hope my bullshit cup never runs over. Then I'll end up on an episode of snapped somewhere! lol
I dont really ever forgive ppl and I for damn sure dont forget transgressions. I just take note put it in my storage of forgets, and select not to remember....